dear friend,
why hello there. well i felt as if i needed to vent and get out my feelings because i have just finished this great book. a long time ago it was reccomended by a friend on the internet. its called the perks of being a wallflower. it was one of those books that you coudl so easily relate too. it put the words ive been wanting to speak into perspective. it was inspiring but at the same time it kind of upsets me. it got me thinking, how i can so easily relate to the book, yet at times in my life i think i am so different. yet throughout the book the character describes exactly how i feel at times. dont get me wrong im not the only one in the world who had these feelings, but at times its just nice to think that you really mean something more. but hey, ill take more good out of the book then i will the bad. right now though life is as it always is, confusing. in my quest to find the person who adds/subtracts my problems, i am left empty handed. one page in the book really summed up my time with whitney. i forget exactly how it was worded, but it said that the whole time i had this great image of whitney that i would "carry around wtih em" on the inside and i woudl sometiems try to expose. but i was more in love with the image to eb able to show her and have her feel it too. shes such a great girl, but at times i make it so she is the greatest thing to grace the earth, an di know thats not true. i jsut need someone where i can do anything around without fear of opinion or bias. i guess that girl is alex. but goddamn is that a whole other novel in it self. in me trying to me more open to her it really just back fired cuz i didnt fully realize our circumstances and her feelings. sure i may have typed a poem to whit that said something i said to her before but it was a poem. what i said to her i meant cuz i personaly told her. a poem is just my feelings spiced up.. i tried to explain my true feelings, as best as i can feel them, but its hard cuz yet again 'i think its hard to find teh words on how i feel.." well im tired of talking, and i can put it into words. so im goin to go now.

Love Always,
Keeblie